february broken heart :(

I hate being sad at least for this love month but my 'idol' is leaving, as what i've heard, tomorrow, and the fact breaks my heart, knowing that i have to wait for a few months before i can see her again. Even seeing her on t.v..... but not seeing her at all....:(
Although, she already posted on her FB page that she'll be back very soon, can't still help but feel so anxious thinking about those 'what ifs'. What if she'll enjoy being in Germany, just like the first time she went there?, what if she realizes that she wants to stay there longer, or worse...(no, no)
Had i known that she planned to leave for Germany in the first place, she wouldn't have been the idol i'd want for myself...but i guess now, even if i had, considering how lovable she is...she would...and that's why it's SICK!
Still, all i wish is for her to be happy...i'll be happy too..:)
BON VOYAGE RACHEL ANNE DAQUIS.....